A Wednesday Letter For My Lovely Dad
Maybe someday i will buy a house for only us outside this town. I want no one, but maybe you and grandma. We can take a little ride by bicycle around the park nearest when grandma cook us something.
Dad, i don't know why i've already hate mom. She hurt me so bad, you should know. She treats me like i'm her step child. I hate it so! When you were not at home, i'm always getting scared. After the school, on the way to granny's house, i feel like traces of blood always follow me home. Every day i cry so hard, when i realized that i've got a life like this. Being with a lot of fvcking people around me.
Dad, how much i really want to cry you a river now! Telling you what i feel now. Telling you about this never ending tears, never ending heartache, never ending pain. I'M IN RUINS, dad. Help me, please.
I ever think about suicide, but there's a reason why so far i still live. There's a lot of things to do, i still hoping i could get the happiness i chase. Hopes. It makes me strong always.
Dad, can you ask mom whether she loves me? Because i'm pretty sure, that she will say 'yes' outside and say 'who the hell are you?!' inside. I knew it right.
Dad, i hope we can fix everything that we messed up.
But if you won't, let me fix my way with no more you or anyone else.
With questioning love.
Nelda Luurk.
CATASTHROPE

I even think, Dad never wish me to be his child. I'm pretty sure about that. He was regret for me, i heard he said that. He wanted me to be someone that he thought i was better to be like that, but how much i want to tell him, this world grows faster that his mind. To conquer this big world, we need to understand the world it self. And, for you Dad. Could you please just understand my world? My way, the way i choose. The way my self love to be. Dad, when your words hurt me, i felt like i was gonna kill my self by something sharp to hurt my vein. I never feel comfortably to say 'sorry' for the one i love, including you. Well, i don't really know now i am still love you or not, after your words yesterday. Your words, oh maaaaaaaaaan it was a BIG APOCALYPSE that HIT MY EYES! Why you did this to me, Dad? I know, i could never be a good daughter for you though i'm always trying to. You should know this, maybe ummm or maybe you don't need to know. I hate you for now. I ever think to not speak to you anymore. I do love this picture, it reminds me of you.
( i searched it on Google.com with categories= dad daughter )
DO FUN






I went to “Do Fun” a.k.a DuFan with Eureka Pratiwi, Gisela, Margaret Livia Elizabeth and Nada Said Talib, today. First, I went there with Eureka, Gisela and Gretha by busway but then we decided to just get there with Nada and Nadi by Nada’s Dad’s car. We met at Golden Truly shelter. I don’t really know is it the car that was too small or we just big enough? But the one that I’m sure I really know was, I got a little space to sit. ( Oh my god !) And I sat at Nada’s Livina uncomfortably for maybe 30 minutes, until we came to Ancol. In front of DuFan’s gate, I saw a miniature of Elephant! That was awesome we were waiting for the VIP tickets from Gretha’s uncle at the gate. Until fifteen minutes later, we could come into DuFan. The first thing we did inside was going to McD. Because Gisela told me that she was hungry. Well we ate in McD, then. ‘Perang Bintang’ ride was the first ride that we enjoyed. Why? Because it was the nearest ride from McD. The visitors there was just a few, so we could get into the ride with no long time in queue. The gate to come into Perang Bintang was empty, dark and horrible. There was no one after we saw the Ride Teller outside. I led the way with Gisela, but when we would through the curtain to enter the train of the ride, I felt afraid. It was horrible and dark. I was pretty sure that Gisela was afraid too. And as the leader of the way to come in, I ran back to Gretha, Nada and Eureka. Gisela too, she even was screaming in a slow way. We were afraid, me and Gisela! But Nada made us brave, she led the way then. At the ride, Gisela sat beside me. We were going to sit closely, because we were still afraid. We took the gun and prepared our self. Nada was so enthusiasm with the game, she stood up and dressed her self up like Lara Croft at Tomb Rider. She was so funny, so crazy too. We all just laughed to see her. The ride was not so cool, I don’t really like Perang Bintang. A ride with no sense. After we went out from the first ride, we took ‘Pontang-Pontang’. I sat with Gretha, Gisela and Eureka, and Nada by her self alone. Pontang-pontang was cool! I screamed out lout with Gretha, when Nada was hiding her face with both her hands! Oh she was not macho! Hahah. The third ride was ummm, I don’t even remember what name of the ride. But the ride was shaped like pizza and it turned to the left and right, up and down. We sat there alone by our self. There was no one anymore but only us who took the ride. We felt like this one was a private. Hahah. The next ride was Halilintar. But just Gretha and me who enjoyed it. Eureka was afraid, Gisela too. And Nada, she always said ‘GUE MAU SIH, TAPI GUE TAKUT.’ Ooooooh Nada! Hahah. In Halilintar, Gretha and i was screaming out loud. I screamed all of the people’s names, I was just screamed. But Gretha, she screamed ‘aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa’ in all the tracks. Her voices was made my ears hurt. ‘Ontang-Anting’ was the next, but I didn’t come in. I just took a picture of them who was enjoyed the ride by Gisela’s Slr. Woah, my capturing was COOL! Hahah. Then we went out to, ummm I don’t even remember what name is the ride. But the shape was like a caterpillar, with green color. Gisela and I was sat down in the front of the train. Then Gretha and Nada, and the third was Eureka in it. Along the tracks, Gisela and I was just laughing out loud while everybody’s in it screamed. Why? Because this ride was enjoyed by a lot of kids. So they were screamed. ‘Tornado’ was supposed the next. But we all didn’t want to involve in it just because there was someone vomited and also urinated in Tornado ride! Oh shit! Hahah. So then we went out to ‘Rumah Kaca’ and ‘Rumah Ajaib’. Like before, in the darkness I was afraid. And I guessed Gisela felt the same way too. Hahah. Next, ‘Kora-kora’! woah this ride was my favorite. But there was something bad happened to me. An accident with the Kora-kora guy. I don’t want to talk more about it. Gisela and Gretha, enjoyed Kora-kora for fourth times, I was just three times, Eureka and Nada was only once. And Nada was still hiding her face when we all enjoyed the ride. Hahahah. Boom-Boom-Car, our next fun! Nada and Gisela were the master of this ride! They both could hit me and Gretha. And Eureka? She was not really enjoyed it, I guessed. Because she just drove all around, not hit other cars like all we did. And then what? Well, we ate at Planet Baso. And Gisela took a picture of us. I was pretty sure I was the ugliest between us. Haha. Then we went home by busway. And said thanks to each other. Thanks Guys!
after you and me had a big fight
Yesterday night, I had a fight with Dad. He was mad at me, and I hated to know that. So I answered in every single word he said. He made me feel like I would explode then get the nearest gun, and shoot his head up! What the hell I was thinking of?
Dad, I don’t really know what will I say to explain what I am feeling now. You always want me to be what the hell you were hoping, but you never understand my own world. You think your hope will be good for me, but I have no ability to do that! Please just understand! My dreams are better than your hope. Why don’t you just sit and watch me play my own game? And if the game is over, you will know something, “in the end, everything is right”.
I am exactly know what I want, what I could do, what I could get. And now I’m trying to get what I want, something that could make you proud of me. Just sit and help me in pray. Thanks.
And sorry for my rude attitude, yesterday.
SKY with ME
The Sky. I do love the brand new bright sky. Blue sky, or the dark one with a lot of stars. I’d like to see the clouds dance at the sky, making a new shape. These pictures are mine, I took it when I was in the terrace of my granny’s second floor. I feel, mmm feeling chocolate choco chips in my tongue when I see the sky.
waiting
evening sense with dad
My Wonderful April c:

Well, to face down this LOVELY THURSDAY I let My Dearly Bowling For Soup to sing along with me. TODAY IS GONNA BE A GREAT DAY, they said. And everything was great today. I hope the best, so I could get the best after I did the best. That’s the rule, isn’t that?
I really happy today! MY GREATEST MOOD was coming back after the hurricane hit us, last March. And all the thanks are only for MY GOD who made this. Thanks God, I will never ever be here without you. I thank you only.
The situation is getting better, because you, God. You made it. And please don’t let me lose my GRETAEST MOOD for the second or even third or I don’t really know how many times it takes! Let me do the right one, to get the right way. Yes, absolutely I know I’m just kinda dirty bad daughter. But I could show you I’m not the loser of my own game. If I have already given you my word, I will show that wherever it takes.
Well, this words are refers to my Granny or maybe my Mom and Dad, emm Aunty also, maybe, or who else I don’t really care. I just want you, all of you, don’t mad at me if I do something bad or wrong, because in the end you will know that I just did some game in my workshop.
THIS APRIL GONNA BE A GREAT DAY, I’M SURE.
FROM MY HAPPIEST SMILE,
Nelda Luurk.
SKIPPING CLASS

Sorry Mom, Granny, Dad, Novita, I didn’t come to school, I just think maybe I need a day to feel free with no homework or what the fVcking else about the hell school. And I will pay it with my score, Mom. You just need to stay on your chair and see my report slip. I’ll show you I’m your clever bad daughter, that’s my promise. And sorry for Israviza Notaria, I brought your Economy slip. I will give our teacher a rational reason about why we didn’t give her our test paper, tomorrow, just wait and see.
And about this day, it’s a lot of big thanks to my coolest friend, DNA. Haha thanks for picked me up, brought me into unsecure place, brought me to your dad’s house, played a gamble with me, paid the gamble with three bottles Nestle ( you debt two more! ), let me cut your mom’s flowers, let me put my hand into your dad’s aquarium, took me into the park, your mom’s hospital, and the hell fvcking place with a lot of your unknown friends.
You’re a good friend, you know! But you’re so stingy!!!! HOW CAN YOU DIDN’T LET ME EAT YOUR DAD’S FISH? AND I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THIS! ALL I WANTED AT MY LUNCH WAS ONLY YOUR DAD’S BIGGEST FISH! I WILL TAKE IT SOMETIME! I GIVE YOU MY WORDS, AND I’LL DO WHEREVER IT TAKES! REMEMBER THAT!
Park Oh Park :)

I could never be better than I was in the Park with you, friend. Please don’t stop smoking! I do love cigar although I could never use it, although I will never smoke.
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Messages
Granny:Demi Nurul dan BSI
Bro Nads:You have been serious or just joking? (oke emg baha inggris gue kacau ) map yak hahaaaaaaaaaa
Bro Nads:Itu anak yang tingginya kayak tiang bendera gimana? Kan lo juga suka ama dia! Lah gue gimana? Mati ajaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lu nad
Bro Nads:Besok udah ngerencanain suka sama siapa lagi neng
Bro Nads:Deketin dong lo kan jago . Nanati keburu disamber orang laen looh sakit hati deh kayak gue
Bro Nads:Kapanpun? Alah paling sebulan duabulan tinggal lupain aje wkwk
Bro Nads:uuuuuuuu macaci? Haha iyaiya semangat ya nurul pasti bisa go go go!
Granny:Tapi BSIgatau bahwa kamu nunggu dia!
Bro Nads:Tailah gue lg asik asik bengong diteriakin 3 bocah ‘orang gila’. Pada mau nginep ya?
Bro Nads:Bagaimanapun kalian itu kan perempuan, masih perawan lagi. Cantik, menarik, pintar, luar biasa.?????? Ngmg apaan sih gue
Granny:BSI GIMANA BSI GIMANE
Granny:COWOK MANA SIH YANG GA NGELIRIK? NKD LOSER AKU SAMPAH COMBERAN
Granny:Gimana dia mau ngebales kalo dia aja ga tau kamu sayang dia dan kamu nunggu dia. Kasih tau lah Rul kalo gitu
Granny:Kamu ahli kan dalam hal hal kayak gini. Tantangan dalam lovelife mu
Granny:Maaf ya kalo kamu pernah cemburu gara2 aku sama BSI duduknya pernah deketan atau karena hal lainnya. Tapi kamu harus tau aku nggak pernah sama sekali nggak pernah pingin punya maksud kayak gitu
Ex:kog marah! Seriusan gue suka!
Granny:HADAPI DULU YANG ADA INI
Granny:Mgaj,kjashndncuikeuifcerfc.!jhbfgcguysgfsbiufhsliyw!.uhfuhyeuir.
Ex:Gue suka bukan marah
Granny:Mata lo gendut! Hahahahahaha Intan! Intan! Eh, Nurul Krisdayanti haha!
Granny:WAKAKAK Gerit brengky kadangan. WAWAWAWAWAJ TAKE ME OUT!
Ex:Apa dong gue gak jago ngegombal tau
Ex:Siapa juga yang mau ngegombalin
Bundo:Tidur tidur radio matiin!
Ex:Apa deh orang ngantuk suruh joget
Dad:Iye anak,knp ga bs tidur?
Ex:Apa deh masih mau smsan
Ex:Yang mau aja
Ex:Mikir2 dulu kali yeeee
Ex:Masa sih semua cewe sms
Dad:Bayar ojek senen ye boy jgn lp
Ex:Yudhistira, knp?
Ex:Marahmarah kyk gmn sh maksudnya?
Litya Anzelma:CXBBCEEAADXAACBXBCAEXBDEEDXDBBEACCDCCEEDECBEDACABAB
Ex:TIKInya ga buka
Ex:ih ngejelek ngejelekin bgt sih
Bro Nads:Kaya nya sih yaaaaaaaaaa kaya nya doang nih kaya nya sih kaya nya deh kaya nya sih si item! Mana berani si bsi sama pentul?
Bro Nads:Dia tuh beneran noh suka sm lo tau, Rul. Wakakakakakakakak canda ye, gamungkin bsi! Emg bsi punya hape? Wakakakak canda deeeeeeeng
Bro Nads:Nurulku sayang lo tuh nanya sama orang yang salah! Gue tuh buta sama yang namanya cinta! ( asik bahasanya ) coba lo tanya sama yang berpengalaman coba nyokap lo atau kagak sama nyokap nya bsi juga boleh
Granny:AWAS HAPE KECEMPLUNG
Bro Nads:Oke kalo udah selesai mandi langsung jelasin ke gue se jelas jelas jelas nya! Jangan lupa, salam piss love and gaol
Granny:Sms bodoh dari Nada haha Iya betul sekali Shinta itu guru besar! Shinta itu sudah hatam dalam hal percintaan!
Besto Kikin:499, perbulan 100rb unlimited
Besto Kikin:d cmpka mas, tp bkn d pusat grosirny, yg d aprtmentny, lantai plg bawah ada
Granny:Oh okedehJ Mau minta satu hal nih mau gamau harus mau, bisa ga bisa harus bisa. Jangan lupain aku ya. Selamat berberes-beres kamar!
Bro Nads:Le?Bay bgt lu haha apalagi kalo lo jd gue ya ruul L dia udah ganti ganti ceweeeeeee gue nya kapan? Kapan? Kapan-kapan
Ex:Nomernya brp, ntar aku tanya mau nonton bola
Granny:Good luck buat test OSN bskJ menurut aku, kamu juga nggak kalah jago sm peserta lain ( pls jgn disangkal ) oke :D
Granny:Gila kuburannya gede2, lg ngapain del?
Granny:Aku gak tau dimana. Tante om kamu Kristen? Atau budha? Kata papa ku bsk baru cengbeng
Granny:Iya papaku juga. Kalo udah ketemu sama adek kakaknya udah kyk org berantem padahal kagak. MENDING PAPAKU PRNH NNTN DIBIOSKOP SENEN YG TMPT DUDUKNYA BNYK BANGSAT. PAPAKU NNTN SAMA KAKAKU 22NYA. KATA KAKAKU PAPAKU MALAH TIDUR! SEKALI KALINYA DOANG TUH PAPAKU NNTN BIOSKOP
Granny:PEMILIK USB KERAMAT
Bro Nads:Sebuah hubungan lesbi ada Butchy(yg jadi cowok) dan Femme( yg jadi cewe)…………..
Bro Nads:NURUL SE BOLOT BOLOTNYA GUE DAN SE TOLOL TOLOLNYA GUE KALO KAYAK GITU GA BAKAL BACOT! Kalo gue bacot sm aja bunuh diri tau. Novita?
Bro Nads:Yah ikut aje biar rame kan seru kayak naik perahu ayun huahua
Childhood Eu:Sialan lo ang.
Bro Gretha:Teman lagi apa? Bosan -,-
Bro Gretha:Lo mau pelihara gajah dimane? Eh gue jadi pengen anak gajah deh lucu hahaha
Bro Gretha:Emang enak gue ada liriknya, mau? Siapa yg bangsat?
Granny:DIJAHATIN SIAPA DEK NURUL?
Granny:ADA GAJAH DI TRANS 7 CEPETAN!
Granny:Kamu udah sampe? Kamu dimana? Aku di sungai keabadian
Granny:EH JANGAN SALAH SALAH ITU NERAKA.
Granny:Hush jangan ngomongin atam. Dia penghuni lama dan tetap di neraka. Angker. Ayo rul balik arah, kesini ke tempatku aja.
Granny:Ariel bagiin kondom itu neraka paling bawah, Johnny neraka setengah matang. Kalo mau ke tempat ku patokannya Dado megang ketapel atau kalo mau lbh cpt Dorce lg di atas treadmill
Granny:Got some…………………………………
Granny:AYO SEMANGAT! BSI! SPIRIT! SPIRIT!
Granny:Just wanna say ThankyouuuuuuuJ Salam Tohar Pentul!
GMAIL:Your google verification code is ………..
Granny:Thanks ya Big Bro
Granny:Tuh kan anak kecil pikirannya gampang berubah. Suka nggak logis ceka ceka ceka. Seangkatan boleh seangkatan tapi liat brojol taon berape sampean
Granny:Nanti kalian kuliah dimana? Barengan aja yuk kuliahnyaber4. Nanti kita satu Kosan. Fantasy ABCD.
Wati:Gimana jen udah sembuh
Aidha:HP 1013 MINI NOTE kak itu yg td
Granny:What the wowo granny? Kayak orang bego tadi kita Huh spongebob&Patrick -,-
Granny:Wassup little girl
Granny:Rulboleh nelpon ke rumah kamu ga? Udh mau tdr ya?
Granny:Wey chibi maruko chan versi jawa!
Granny:Oppornited nggak ada cil?
Childhood Dog:Jangan lupa matiin lampu yak! :D
Aidha:Kak tiwinya ud dtg?
Wati:Jen kapan kita ke Blok M?
Bundo:Ketiduran dirumah tiwi?
Aunty1:Ke pasaraya yuk!
Bundo:Kalo levis lg disc30 Baru kt beli
Aunty1:Makan steak yuk Del nnti abs ak plg kerja
Bundo:Kak kasih makan kura2 pake kangkung di kulkas sore2 ya
Granny:Big love for my big bro
Intan:Jen lks or sama sejarah udh dikerjain blm?
Intan:Tararenkyu
Granny:Babik teks lagu macam apa itu
Dad:GET TO YOUR ROOM! YOU’RE GROUNDED!
Reza:Sorry tadi gue gk denger
Bro Ronaldo:Eh jen rumah lo dmn? Bls
Bro Ronaldo:Di jalan apa?
Besto Kikin:Sip, ntar gw kordinasi dlu sm tim TVS, pulsa lw b3 aman deh.. ;) tks y.
Besto Kikin:Eh GR tu mksdny meeting utk persiapaan dg tim TVS dtmpt yg sm, ………………
Gerrard:metromini 47, nanti lo sama gue
Bro Gisela:Okay deh haha. Emosi bgt gw td. Sabtu klo berhasil kt kerjain. Sms gw yak lo ad perkembangan. Thx udh ngeladenin sms gw.
Bro Gisela:Menurut lo itu refers ke siapa?
Gerrard:Not now karena banyak yg blm bisa lo tinggalin mungkin. Prestasi lo dan keluarga lo masih harus diperhatiin
Gerrard:tapi kan kata lo janji mesti ditepati
Gerrard:yaudah yg bener makanya biar juara
Gerrard:nanti gue jemput lo lah
Bro Gisela:Jen, nnti klo ulgan biologi catetin jawabannya ya.
Gerrard:Maaf ya nurul gk bs bantuin lo ngerjain anyaman. Eh masa arsenal seri main dikandang lawan Barcelona 2-2
(c:):Jen gw denger lo skt ya? Skt apaan cepet sembuh aja ya sory kaga bisa jenguk gatau rumah lo. Jd ngerasa bersalah gw
Bro Gretha:nyet gue dpt ekonomi nih demi rul bales gapake lama
Granny:Pingin deh ke Hollywood sama kamu. Kalo kita ketemu Jennifer Garner pasti kita norak haha. Kita? Lo ae kali gue nggak.
Calendar
28 June 2010=Pak Djonner Saragih
Call Log
Missed Call (12) Della Ratu=2 Gerrard=4 Esya=1 Arinda Witaviani=2 Aunty4=2 Aunty1=1
Received Call (3) Granny=2 Bro Ronaldo=1
Total Receive=00:22:27
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Alan Smith Bleed
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Rio Ferdinand
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