is this break up?

It’s too late to talk to you and it’s too soon to say goodbye, I think. It’s about the time, you know about the truth. Sorry for our affair that had a short lived. It’s just because, I’m so bubbling, I’m a very difficult person, and very demanding in a very dangerous state of mind. That’s why I want you, I want you don’t expect to play the game with me, cause I’m bored out my skull. And this one is better for us, we are better to move before the snow gets too deep. Maybe you will ask me “WHY?”, okay let me answer that “I HAVE TRIED TO GET YOU BUT I COULDN’T GET THROUGH”. I MAY NOT UNDERSTAND A WHOLE HELL A LOT ABOUT THIS KINDA STUFF! You give me no highway option. I’m not gonna make it better for sure, even if you give me a chance to punk up. I think about you now, you got some serious competition and you lost! Then now what? Let me put it this way : I OWE YOU A GOOD LOVE IN RETURN, AND YOU OWE ME A BAD WORDS FROM EVERYONE IN RETURN, BAD WORDS LIKE THESE “that’s the way you get things done, NKD?” OR WHAT THE HELL ELSE. This just might work out.
Come on, long way to go yet, ex darl. Just let me fall on my ass because I’m still able to mask my pain. I went through my things so far. And I need this time, this time for me to force my self to get personal. I’m on my own now in a middle life crisis to get through.
Well, I want we split but remains friend. I hope we can get along like before, like we are friend forever. You’re typically the boy’s next door, I do love you as my friend.
Thanks. I hope you and me could get the real dish, after this.